separated, at at at , tender age ...

This was written in 2018, when a certain memory just brought in a sudden burst of  anguish..

Today I read about Massechesets governer's call for nurse calls for Postpartum moms

A nurse can call , but I would say more than that is needed. real view of  things can  make a real difference in some ones despair and inescapable wretchedness of the life...

I thank Nurse Smith for the day she came by, knocked on the door until it was opened , thus saving  me and my child from the  abuser(however short a respite, it gave us relief), the other parent here who dissuaded the  home visits by the nurses . The horrors are now just shadowy filamentous memories , but Thank you Nurse Smith and to all those who are able to sense what is hidden behind the facades we erect , the facades of happy lives even as these facades are what lie  closest  to real hell....

(pc-3 , 09/15/2026)

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 Seperated ,at at at ,tender age...

words, sounds
separated children,  man-made borders,
shelter pets, crickets in a nuclear dust, cries , breaking souls,
repeat again -- hate .. .control, laws, cruelties,
gloating laughter, backtracking words, sounds, crying children,
slammed doors... Bullies, laughable notes, music, sobs...
miller got soul envy,
hates a child that's ever been loved...
suckling pigs , sati on a pyre
paper white , ink that spread don't cry -only sulk to torture,
PTSD, return of the devil...time rewind, 1985 June , rules , laws...
untouchable, female, dirty, child, closed door ,
infant cries, pediatricians rules,.. dare to disobey?..
bully by any name is still one;
bully pulpits change, titles all shift shapes...
God weeps in children, in an infant,
love is not rules, nor dunes
dictator comes in all shapes, shape shifting demons,
beguiled masses...
oh so many years, traumas shadow all a life,
dare I question, raised eye brows,
oh nurse smith, one less moment of torture for my baby...
pediatrician, president or king-all shapes,
devils adorned in shimmer, mirage, life or oil vats..
Bibles- blades to guillotines,
dark days, dark shadows swirl inwards,
sorrow seeps to coat my soul,
soulless floaters, fake gods,
north star, plastic bit ,shimmer in the sky or the seas,
universe- reflected tar in our souls' images,
death, hell, life -all iterations of the same...

(poem by pc3-06/18/18)

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'I don't recall what triggered this poem, but  the content was a deep sadness for the cruelty meted out to my children by their father, especially my child born in 1985 with rules seperating him from me - his mother , yet was saved briefly by Nurse smith. I don't remember her first name , just glad she came by when she came to see  her consultant pediatrician's new baby ... the little miracles that happen even in the midst of hell called life , these are what one is thankful for ....wanted to put it out here as i recalled that miracle"